I had dinner at this place with a fren yesterday… It’s a japanese restaurant along ms, called Orion or something like that. Food was great.. it was so nice that I’ve fallen in love with this hotate sashimi. It’s so sweet and fresh! My fren tricked me into eating some leaf which feels hairy on my tongue. And I forced him to eat it too. Too bad I din take a photo of it, or you guys can tell me wat leaf I ate. Anyway, I had my first try of this salmon roe thing. Yes, he forced me to eat that too, knowing I dun dare to eat it. So bad of him. So after dinner, we went to fetch gina and fransca at plaza sing… and guess where we are going?

Yeah! momo again! But that was the later part of the night. We went to try mos. Such a nice place and we took a crazy amount of pictures… 100+ all at the pretty pink and white toilet… From taking normal photos of each other to lickin and kissin each other (Ermm.. we pretended to lick and kiss)… Had a wonderful time with them… Too bad mos was too crowded. Ended up at momo again. Party till 5, had supper and reached home at 7. Damn freaking tired! Was supposed to meet Steven for dinner and movie again, and I skipped that.

So now I’m slacking at home. Recuperating for the weekend! =)

Milo makes a good guard dog!!! I bet all my frens who’s been to my place agrees! Milo can scare the hell out of anyone by raping their legs… =D

Anyway, I just came home from a fufiling day. Post xmas celebration I’d say.

I met up with Brandon in the afternoon around 6 (when it’s supposed to be 5, and worse, I forgot to bring his pressie) , went to eat sushi, walk around and then he left for work at 8.

At 830, I met Steven, walk around, and then had dinner at billy bombers.

Cheers, to the new millennium drink= $5 or $6 ?

2 festive season set meals= $76

Watching Janice pouts her lips when she complains bout the fruit cake being too sweet= priceless.

Well… that’s wat he said. He got me a darn precious moment ornament. I hate ornaments. Put there to collect dust only. But hey, nvm… He crapped a lot and made my night well entertained. And then he left for some birthday celebration around 1030.

I met Eugene after that, and ate again, the chong pang nasi lemak. Gosh. I am becoming so fat. He got me this:

=)  It’s been hmmm.. 3 years since I last got a bracelet! So happy…

Alright. I finished reporting my day’s events. Good night!

Hohoho, Happy new year!

Alright, this is how I spend my christmas.

On 23rd, I went momo with Summer and Sam. Gina is supposed to come, and she put us aeroplane again. I dun wanna ask why. Ahem. Anyway, we had a few drinks at Red Club, tequila, whiskey and chivas before heading to momo. Sam left early around hmmm… 2? Then poor summer and I were left alone to party.. till 5. Are we tired of momo or are we just sick of clubbin? Or worse, we’re sick of each other’s company? We go there every week, and the bouncer and all already recognize us. Oh well…

On 24th, I was workin. Some Carlsberg Santarina thing… While everybody’s having fun, I was sloggin for money. I dun understand this thing bout girls not making a perfect galfren jus because she’s a waitress. Anyway, after finishing work at 1 at Obar, I stayed there with a group of frens…

   My dates for the night. =)  Someone commented that I look shy.  *blush*

After that I had supper with another group of fren and went home. No xmas gifts from any dates this year. Boo.

I dunno… I really dunno anymore…

The more I tried to be happy the more it backfires on me…

I dun wan anybody anymore… Not now. Not now…

Affection, lies, money, watever…

I am only a fucking toy.

A fucking toy.

Would you

a) be with somebody you love, he loves you too, all the sweet and romantic stuff, have sex, then fade away one day, get hurt, end up with nothing except memories that haunt

or

b) be with somebody you have not much feelings for, doesn’t matter whether he loves you, gives you money and anything he can get you if he’s happy, have sex, then fade away one day, get hurt, end up with a condo, a car that’s under your name?

-

I dreamt bout him last night.

I’m trying very hard to let go…

On thursday, I met up with the guy who’s going to teach me golf. Went sakae for dinner, ate lotsa sashimi… He bought me a dress which he claimed it’s from hongkong. From my years of shopping experience, I know he lied. But it’s ok. The dress is lovely, and I quite like it. Changed into the dress, and we went to New Asia Bar… On the 72nd level. The view is awesome, the music is good.. The only bad thing bout it was the number of caucasians around. We were practically the only chinese around… It’s a place which I definitely wanna go with my gals the next time.

Had a few drinks and left at 12+… Couldn’t get to sleep until 5. Was lookin through photos.. and the hundred over of msges in my phone.. All bout him.

Yesterday, Sam met up with me at yishun. We planned to cook tom yum to reminisce bout our old school days… Had our lunch at the food court, and I quarreled with gina there. It was quite a heated arguement. Well.. both of us said something unpleasant. Things will be ok soon. So after lunch, Sam and I went to the cold storage, bought food that can probably feed 8 pple, when we only have to cook for my family and ourselves. It was a huge pot. Too bad gina chose to swim and blade… coz she missed out on a sumptuous meal. We didn’t eat alot anyway, coz we dun wan a bloated stomach… for a night out at momo…. again.

Met up with Summer and Audrey outside momo at 12.  Took pics again till like 1230 or something?  Saw a tall guy fren there, drank together, dance together and after he sent sam back, we went for dim sum at geylang. Wanted to go to orchid country club for a kick-ass pool session after that, but by the time we reached there it was like 5, and it’d closed. So he send me home. OH! I forgot to mention I drove his car all the way from geylang back to yishun! =) And when I alighted, I slammed the door on my finger.. now it’s swollen. Sob.

Dad’s grandma passed away this year on valentines.

Shortly after, Dad’s mum passed away, 3 days after my birthday, on april 6th. Cried when I saw grandma lying there at the mortuary. When I was offered to touch her for the last time, I didn’t coz it was too overwhelming. I regretted. I used to play with the mole on her left hand. Seeing dad and mum cry felt even worse.

Today, Mum’s grandma passed away. I dun feel much for both of my great grandmothers, since I toked to them for less than 10 times altogether, but the idea of going to the funeral and watching my parents cry and worse, my grandma cry is bad. Tears will just roll uncontrollably when you see them cry. I dun wan to see my dearest grandma’s health go bad bcoz of this.

I gotta brace myself and finish the last remaining bits of my assignment.

There’s so much crying this month. Christmas is never merry.

I saw my good fren smiling like I used to as she talks on the phone happily, teasing each other.

Little things she did reminded me of what used to happened to me.

I can do nothing but watch her immerse in happiness so familiar,

and feel pain so ….

I’ve got another big red pimple again. =(  Went to guardian and got myself an extra strength acne treatment cream with gina just now. It has been close to 5 years since I last bought such creams… You can imagine how bad the pimple was and how desperate I wanted to get rid of that- fast. Other than applying a thick layer of cream on the pimple itself, I ate lots of Vitamin C. As I’m typing this, I can feel the cream drying up on my pimple. Tingling warm sensation= strong, immediate results= good= I like. In case you wanna know, the cream’s from clearasil.

So Sam’s back, came to my place on friday to prepare for a night out at momo. We put on fake lashes together with Gina. And voila, I look like a doll! =)  Met up with kylie and audrey outside momo at 10, took lotsa photos till 11, and then we had fun for 30 mins, and went with our different group of frens after that.

If you’d noticed, I hadn’t been bloggin bout my encounters in clubs recently. And neither have I been tokin bout the dates I went on. I had been avoiding all that for close to a month… for the strangest reasons. Life is peaceful at the moment.

The ice-cream man is ringing downstairs.. going down to get some.

I dunno wat came over me these days.

I didn’t go to school, I didn’t finish my assignments within the time frame…

I feel lethargic in things I do, and I even shouted at gina over the phone on several occassions. Most of the time we’re cool and tolerating each other. Fortunately she didn’t fight back on my cranky days.

It all seems that I’m just lazy. But the only thing that perks me is work! I’m workin quite a bit these days. And working just makes me feel so much better. Even better than clubbing. And even if a super handsome dude came along, I’ll still keep him at arm’s length. I just wan to keep myself within my comfort zone. No room for new people… The thought of unfolding and reconnecting seemed so tedious that I dun even wan to try.

I wan to go on a holiday. Just bring me anywhere will you?